I can understand that. In a weird way, it's actually helped me along in my story, at least in characterization of my SI. I now know the conditions under which I would be willing to fight for my country, and before last night I had always thought myself too cowardly to do that. There might be a smidgen of heroism in me after all, which might be useful in writing a more exciting self-insert.
"Kitto daijoubu da yo." - Sakura Kinomoto